This is not okay.
McGraths not coming to fest,
that's one thing.
Barry+ co., that's another-
and quite closer to home.
JAKE NOT COMING TO FEST,
is not a pleasent day.
Sometimes, life moves too fast.
Sometimes, I force it into full throttle.
Sometimes, I put too much pressure on myself.
Sometimes, I get a little crazy.
Fest- 3 weeks.
It's a tipsy-turvy world out there girls and boys.
And right now, it's a good one.
Like... 3 years in the making,
NicholasEdwardFrancisBaldini and I,
are in a honest-to-God, furserious, relationship.
And so far,
so really really good.
But right now,
he's finding out about my past.
And I don't necessarily want to tell him aaall about it,
just the most relevant stuff. [coughJakecough].
It's awkward, but really kindof very important to me.
It's nervewrecking as all hell though.
Which is why I think I haven't called him in the past two days...
even though I really should.
And really want to.
Especially since the last phone conversation I had with him,
was the best phone conversation I've ever had with him.
the parentals found out I've been partying again.
And they have yet to come up with a suitable punishment.
But it's going to be "creative" and "have a lasting effect".
Which is SCARING THE SHIT OUT OF ME.
I'm really hoping I don't get grounded right now,
'cause I really wanna hang out with Nick,
and will die if I can't see/talk to Laura Powell.
To be continued...
Things have changed.
The world revolved,
and then went around the sun,
therefore- things have changed.
My stance on Jake stays the same,
and is working nicely.
not so much.
He's deffinitly still a cutie,
but I don't think I'm intrested anymore
(apparently he's a MONDO man whore... and could potentially have diseases I am not prepared to deal with)
things have changed.
I feel like a bee.
I HATE 8 YEAR OLD PRINCESSES!
Where Eathan was surprising pleasent,
even though he wouldn't let me teach him how to play guitar.
Becca's party and HARRY POTTER.
Becca's was nice, even though I only knew like four people.
I got kinda lonely sometimes but I made a new friend,
and a creeper stalker.
Harry Potter was SICK.
Riah was there, and *surprise!* so was Arianna, Emily and Theresea (sp?)
it was cool to see them outside of camp.
FOR SIX LONG, TERRIBILY BORING HOURS!
I now know the kinda cut boy that works at the booth across the ways name...
Today I wen tto some antiquey dealamabobber.
But I feel like right now I really just wanna go play guitar.